Today in therapy, I discussed my hatred for myself.
And in simplest terms, I view myself as a bad guy. I cause more harm than good, I feel like I’m a burden to everyone, and I know that if I could just be better – I would make everyone else’s life better too.
In a lot of ways, I feel like Darth Vader. I am mostly evil and selfish. I turned to the dark side, and I am a burden and a harm to everyone I meet.
My therapist listened to me and asked me, if I could be any character in Star Wars, who would I be?
Without question, I would be Princess Leia. She’s strong and brave. She’s beautiful. She’s sarcastic and funny. She’s honest. She is in charge. She can lead. She can do and be whoever she wants to be. She will fight for what she believes is right.
If I could be any character, I would be Leia. Instead, I feel like I’m Darth Vader.
So my homework this week, and my new life motto to tell myself on the hard days: I am Princess Leia.
I AM PRINCESS LEIA.
YOU ARE PRINCESS LEIA.
WE ARE PRINCESS LEIA.
Depression can be Darth Vader, but I will be Leia.